The shady glimpse of memories, perhaps the ones that are still living, can be hard to watch over and over again throughout the years. At some moments they can be quit enjoying with a warm smile to accompany them and then strikingly terrifying the next. I wonder sometimes why memories have such a drastic effect. Why do we hide them? Why do we forget them? Why do we hold onto them for such a long time as if they will fade if we don’t hold them close? Most of us have lived, if not still, in the past at some point. We feel a rushing of the heart and sweat drips down our face as this certain memory appears in our mind, with resentment no too far behind it. Sometimes perhaps excitement will fill our souls and a glistening will fill our eyes, remembering another fond memory.
Sometimes trying to keep the memories hidden or stuffed away in some closet is too hard. With them fighting to get out and be exposed, and shine for all to see, we seclude ourselves so no one can see, because with one look, someone can see the pain, someone can see the hurt, the anger, the alone.
The verse of the day I read today was this: Hebrews 4:12 – For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. Then I read onto verse 13: Nothing in all creation is hidden from God’s sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account.
I thought about this for a minute and it made me chuckle. For the moments, the memories we try so hard to hide…the Lord still sees them. Nothing can be hidden, He sees all. This also made me think when the Lord places people on our hearts and we see things and feel things that they have been through, perhaps healing they need. You know that look that people give you? The one that says, ‘I know what is going on. I know what you are wanting to hide. I know what you are running from. I know how you feel’. You start feeling scared and relieved all in one moment. Here you are, you thought you had everything all tucked away so no one could see…then someone gives one glance and you break. You thought you had it all under control, but with one look from someone who seems to stare at you as though the Lord would, you snap.
What if we were to open the drapes and let the Son shine through? What would happen if the shade was rolled up, so you could see the pretty flowers gazing inside the cold window with their wonderful fragrance that makes you forget everything around you? What if we…
Peering through a window and what can you see? If there is a light, everything. If there is darkness, nothing!